& I’ve been happy a lot lately. Though I had a pretty rough day at school, everything was settled. I reunited with an old best friend & I couldn’t be more happy with that. I spent the night with my three best friends. I’m getting my nails done monday. I get inducted into the National Honor Society at my school on tuesday. Then prom is thursday and I couldn’t be more excited for that. THEN SUMMER. Thank the LORD. I love life <3
… I’ve been through some tough times in my life. But honestly, today has been a pretty terrible day. I haven’t stopped crying for about 4 hours now & I know it’s not going to stop for a while. My boyfriend’s family is going through a real tough time & it hurts me since I’m so close to them. I wish there was something I could do or even say to make things alright, but I can’t & it’s killing me. My boyfriend is so hurt by everything & I really don’t blame him. He lied to me for the first time ever today & I couldn’t even be mad at him because of everything going on. All I want to do is run away….far, far away. And now, he’s so upset about everything that he doesn’t even really want to talk to me & it sucks because that’s all I want to do - talk to him. This s p a c e
is the most painful I’ve ever had to endure. Going all this time without talking to him is driving me absolutely insane. And the sad part is, I have no one else to talk to to kill the time. I have zero friends who will truly understand what’s going on. And the friends I thought would be asking me “what’s wrong” by now won’t even give me the time of day. I’m in shambles. My life feels like it’s going down the drain even though it’ll probably be fine in a few days. But for now, I’m beyond broken. I’m probably the most vulnerable I have ever been and it sucks. I know I should give him his space, but it hurts. It hurts so bad. I said I’d do anything for him, & this is anything, right? WRONG. I don’t want this space to be part of the “anything” because it FUCKING BLOWS. I WANT MY OLD LIFE BACK. MY OLD HAPPY LIFE.
BOOM. <3 I’m in love.
I’m no hipster. I’m just me.
YAY. BLONDE.